12,419 Days

It is 12,419 days from the start date to the end date, but not including the end date

Or 34 years excluding the end date  (http://www.timeanddate.com/date/durationresult.html?m1=01&d1=16&y1=1980&m2=01&d2=16&y2=2014)

UPDATE AS OF [12/19/25]:  16,438 days since December 16, 2025 and 45 years and 2 days.  Jeff Mitchell had his hip replacement surgery yesterday and came out alive.  Amazing that you can do this as outpatient and be home later that day.  [end UPDATE]

My mother died 34 years ago this morning a little after 8 am, or that’s how I remember it.  I had spent the night in her hospital room, sleeping for a while in a chair.  I recall that early in the morning, a doctor and nurse had come into the darkened room to check on my mother and I heard them whisper her blood pressure reading.  I think it was somewhere in the 40s, and whether they made the comment that that reading was exceptionally low, I knew it wasn’t good for her.

I guess they had induced a semi-comatose state by giving her Brompton’s Mixture.  *I just checked the spelling of this, having thought for about 34 years that it was Bromine’s Mixture.  I did know that it was a mixture of powerful pain suppressants.  So addictively powerful that it was only given to terminally ill patients (of which mom having Leukemia, was one) who would never be expected to “break the habit.”

I say semi-comatose because mom had laid in her hosptial bed, eyes rolled back in her head and breathing becoming longer between the cycles of inhale and exhale.  At one point that morning, I had gotten up and went to the bed and touched her hand.  Her eyes rolled back, showing her pupils to me, but looking through me, not at me.  No love or recognition remained.  My mother had already left me.  I’m sure, “not of her choosing.”  And, just as quickly as they had rolled one way, they rolled back showing only the whites of her eyes.

I walked over to the chair in the corner of the room and sat back down.  It might have been about 7:45 am when I touched my mom’s hand, and now perhaps about 8:10 am, I heard her breathe her last… and then, the “Death Gurgles”.  With her head being slightly elevated upon a pillow, I guess the air trapped inside lifeless lungs meanders its way back up and out for the last time, gurgling as if water flowing down a mountain stream.

I don’t know if I got up and walked over beside her bed, and sat down in a chair there, or whether I was already there, with my back to the one window in the room.  The room by the way was 401, which was across from a nurses’ station.  I guess you can tell the extremely ill patients by how close they are placed to hospital staff.

I waited for several minutes, or at least that is how it seemed.  It might have been less than a minute in reality, but I intentionally was waiting before notifying a doctor or nurse.  I loved my mother.  She was “the light in my life,” but weighing about 84 lbs., and having been is extreme pain, in her last days, and not able to do the things she had loved for much of her life, those being work as an office secretary (over 45 years Civil Service), and outdoor work (gardening, etc.), it was time to go.  The doctor (Dr. Adnan E. Taj-Eldin, MD) had already put a “no code” on my mother, which meant, do not attempt to resuscitate.  I was perfectly in agreement with that decision.  Why would you want a loved one to remain in pain just because you weren’t ready to let them “go” for some reason?

However long I waited, I stood up and went out of the room and to the Nurses’ Station where a lone nurse stood, perhaps filling out paperwork.  I said to the nurse, “Would you please take a look at my mother.”  In my request there was no hint that I already knew my mother was dead.  My voice made one request, but there was another part of me that, standing outside myself, gave a short laugh and then said to me, “You know she’s dead.”

The nurse went into the room by herself, the door automatically shutting behind itself, but shortly she came out with an expression in her eyes as if she held some dire secret that she must keep from me.  She escorted me around the corner, past the elevator doors, and into a small, common sitting room with windows all around.  This overlooked the front entrance to Onslow Memorial Hospital (Jacksonville, NC).  She went to call the doctor.

After a short while, I was told that my mother was dead.  I don’t recall the exact wording, but dead is dead.  “A rose by any other name would smell as sweet.”  Or be as offensive.  Or be as inoffensive, as long as it speaks the truth.

Mary Ann stopped by the hospital, this being her current routine after taking her children to school.

What I believe…

Having only read a couple of hundred verses of the Quran, which is a very small portion of it, my belief in Jesus as Messiah, Saviour, seems even more wonderful. On one hand they seem to agree that He is Messiah, but they take a different journey to missing the point, that He had to die upon the Cross to be the Messiah is so offensive that they offer the explanation of a “substitute” upon the Cross who died. What is odious to them, is a sweet smell to us, and that is because we see His sacrifice as the necessary completion of why He was sent to Earth.

They understand Abraham. They would surely understand animal sacrifice. And, you don’t take a blemished or sick animal to sacrifice, but one that is unblemished and pure. Wouldn’t someone question how killing an animal satisfies God for the sins we men have committed? But, if you believe that an unblemished animal sacrifice can cleanse us from our sins, and this sacrifice must necessarily be repeated again and again, then what is more perfect than the sacrifice of a sinless man? And here is one stumbling block, someone will say, “But there is no one that is sinless, but God.” But, Christians believe that God gave Jesus the power and direction to lead a sinless life… up to the Cross.

What of Abraham’s sacrifice of his son, Isaac? That God knew He would provide Abraham with a sacrificial lamb, caught in the branches of a bush, isn’t the focal point of the story. What is important is that Abraham, in his old age, having at that time an only son, loved and trusted God enough to take the one thing he loved greatly, his son, and go into the desert to offer God a sacrifice. This journey makes everything crystal to both Abraham and Isaac. No earthly father could set a better example to his son, than what Abraham did here. And, the example isn’t lost on Isaac. I don’t know if he ever gasped air as he came to realize that he was “the sacrifice,” that his father was willing to offer to God. Or maybe Isaac offered a sigh of relief when he heard the bleating of the sheep. For, no one wants to die, although for a higher purpose some will offer themselves.

Didn’t Jesus pray fervently in the Garden that this task be taken from him? And yet, ultimately he said, “not my will, but Thine Oh Lord.” There was no sheep caught in the thicket, to act as a substitute for Jesus. There was no “other person” who took on the form of Jesus so that Jesus wouldn’t have to die. In fact, if someone else had acted as a substitute, Jesus would not have been the Messiah, Saviour.

The perfect, sinless one, was nailed to a cross and became sin for us. One that is nailed to a cross is cursed. If God can be merciful to whom He will, then can He not purify whom He will. Jesus did not remain on the Cross. His side was pierced and blood and water flowed from his wounds, and yet, not a bone was broken. He died, and was taken and buried.

But the wonder of God is that on the third day, the Christ arose to sit at the right-hand of God. And, that all things might be brought in subjection under Him, Christ.

Some falter upon the notion of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. God is One.

Quran 4:171 Sahih International

O People of the Scripture, do not commit excess in your religion or say about Allah except the truth. The Messiah, Jesus, the son of Mary, was but a messenger of Allah and His word which He directed to Mary and a soul [created at a command] from Him. So believe in Allah and His messengers. And do not say, “Three”; desist – it is better for you. Indeed, Allah is but one God. Exalted is He above having a son. To Him belongs whatever is in the heavens and whatever is on the earth. And sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs.

My experience with the Holy Spirit tells me that there is no jealousy or rivalry between the three, they are One. It’s not an Earthly thought or concept. It is a Heavenly or Divine one. The closest thing I can use as an analogy of the three being one, is that of me, and my hand and my foot. If I do something with my hand, does my hand deserve a separate honor from me? No. If someone kisses my hand to honor me, do I become jealous of my hand in that it received the honor? No. It is one with me. Does my hand hold itself up in a kingly gesture because it was kissed? No. It’s my hand, a part of me. And, what of my foot. Does it become jealous of my hand? No. We are all working together. The parts are not separate. They make up the whole. We are one.


But who do you say that I am?

What I believe: That Jesus was the Son of God, born of the virgin, Mary. He was sinless. He was the Messiah, sent by God to die upon the Cross, thereby becoming the perfect sacrifice for all men. And, being obedient to his Father, he was crucified and his blood shed “for me.” He died, was buried and after three days he arose to “sit at the right hand of God.” Without the shedding of blood, there is no forgiveness of sins, and a sinner cannot have fellowship with God.

When I was 22 years old, shortly before my 23rd birthday, I had that life changing experience where the Holy Spirit came into me. The Word of God became alive.

Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.

For most of my life I have not been obedient to God. I have not sought Him out, nor sought to bring others to Him, in Christ. However, I would be a liar to say that Jesus was not the Christ, the Messiah of God, sent to die upon the Cross in order to become the perfect sacrifice for the forgiveness of all men’s sins.

Luke 12:5 But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him.

I begin to understand what the “crazy” pastor in Florida is doing. His intention is to burn the Quran. Some seem to imply that “radical Islam” is all we need to fear. As if “chop your head off” or “blow up your body” stuff is the worst that can be done to a person. Read below, what is being said from the Quran. It says the Messiah wasn’t crucified, nor did he die, but it was a Godly hoax and an impostor was put in Jesus place. It was this impostor that was actually killed. *Do you understand what blasphemy this is to a Christian?

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Quran (This came from the Quran.com web site.)

4:157

Sahih International

And [for] their saying, “Indeed, we have killed the Messiah, Jesus, the son of Mary, the messenger of Allah .” And they did not kill him, nor did they crucify him; but [another] was made to resemble him to them. And indeed, those who differ over it are in doubt about it. They have no knowledge of it except the following of assumption. And they did not kill him, for certain.

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NOTE [ 10/10/23 ]: Some time ago, I had a realization regarding the “Anti-Christ.” When I was growing up and I heard the term “anti-Christ,” I immediately thought of the Devil, a single powerful being that was denying that Jesus was the Messiah, the Christ. But, then it came to me that anyone that denies that Jesus is Christ is actually being “the anti-Christ.” Chopping someone’s head off is awful, but more awful is first convincing them that there is no Salvation in Jesus Christ. Jews are the “chosen people,” but if a Jew says, “Jesus isn’t the Messiah,” “He isn’t the Christ,” then they are acting as “the anti-Christ.” Against Christ.